Which really is more just an admittance to myself then an actual confession.
Those who know me.
The real me.
Have already seen “it” but either I have been blind by the truth or tricked into thinking that I too could be super mom.
The super mom myth is just that.
A big fat lie created to make normal everyday moms around the world feel like crap.
“You too can have a spotless house, well behaved children and a fantastic marriage” all you have to do is… Sound familiar?
All the magazines would lead you believe that behind your neighbours closed doors perfect ikea bedrooms lie mocking your unmade bed.
Somehow I started believing that it was possible to live like that if I just tried a little harder.
So without even realizing it I swallows the lie hook line and sinker which translated into burning the candle at both ends.
Menu planner, chef,event coordinator, housekeeper and chauffeur took priority over my life. I put my knitting aside and put the books away busying myself with every day household stuff and not taking a chance to rest.
I have my kids in so many activities It wasn’t until one of the ladies at bible study pointed out my error in counting how many activities they are actually in!
Just so you get “on the same page” I’m a mom of 4.
My oldest is 18 so she is the independent one out of the crowd.
Then I have an 8 year old son a 6 year old daughter an a 2 year old daughter.
Plus my hubby works out of town for 10 days at a time to support our family so there are days when it’s just me and the kids and truthfully it’s it can be tough.
(Hats off to all you military wives!)
I work too in the house running a day home watching 3 additional children Monday to Friday 7:00-5:00 along with working at the church nursery Tuesday mornings from 9-11.
That in itself should be more than enough but ever night the middle two have 30 min of home reading and 30 min piano practice.
Oh and spelling word!
Okay here’s the weekly schedule:
Monday: free night
Tuesday: piano lessons
Wednesday: bible study and church programs
Friday: free night
Saturday: swimming lessons
How about now?
I have stuffed our lives so full we haven’t scheduled any rest or downtime. This schedule is set in stone until the end of December.
Sometimes we get so caught up in all of our “junk” we don’t even see the signs that we have over committed ourselves and over extended ourselves.
I never developed Unhealthy boundaries telling me when to stop which is hard because I love what I do!
I knew I was tired and I am tired but this is ridiculous.
It takes me getting a fever to unplug for an afternoon and snuggle under a blanket to rest.
We were challenged in study to make changes in our daily schedule that would give even a few moments of much-needed downtime.
Do you know how hard that is?
Part of the super mom lie is somebody else has already bought into it and they believe that you can do it and that person will always encourage you to continue on with all the craziness or to add more to your plate. Even if they don’t try for themselves.
You have to ignore her.
Seriously I don’t care who she is or how wonderful her chicken pot pie is. Being a mother to a large family is tough.
Sucking up the lie that your house has to be spotless is exhausting and pointless.
Do you have any idea how much Landry a family of six can generate in a matter of days?
I’m convinced the dirty underwater is multiplying but I can’t find definitive proof.
Yesterday alone I washed and dried six loads of laundry.
You would think that the basket would be empty but I peeked and to My horror I realized I have another load just waiting to go in.
I learned that It’s okay to order “take out” and take the night off cooking.
Your children will survive.
It’s okay to sit and play a board game and heaven forbid let your house look lived in.
Supermom will tell you that you can do all of “it” but I’m a real mom and I’ve learned the hard way so believe me when I encourage you to delegate.
if they’re old enough to pull the clothing out of the drawer then they are old enough to put it back in. If you are concerned that the clothing won’t look as neat and tidy as you would do it then show them how to do it once and then resolve to the understanding that yes,a small bomb blew up in that drawer and and it’s wise to it just not look!
A few household chores have already been delegated so that the kids pick up their own toys and make their beds.
They empty their backpacks and lunch kits which frees up time.
The six-year-old enjoys vacuuming so I relish the help when offered.
I have yet to see anyone perish because there was dust on the tops of door frames and the only one who cares about that must be crazy.
I’m learning that it’s okay to not give an automatic yes.
I’m also realizing I’m in desperate need of a break.
How that will translate into my every day life I don’t know.
But I tried something different the past two mornings.
I woke up, brewed a cup of coffee and sat down with my bible.
The Lord has been impressing on me to read a chapter each and every day from the book of proverbs.
If you aren’t familiar with this particular book in the bible it was written by Solomon the wisest king to rule Israel. This book gives practical counsel that’s also spiritual ranging in issues from money management to the dangers of adultery to learning how to identify true friends. Hidden in these words are principles of building strong marriages, parenting and relationships.
Believe it or not two days in and I’ve already noticed huge difference.
I still have a mountain of stuff to do but when I put him first the other stuff just sort of falls into place.
I’m also in the process of changing my own expectations of what needs to be done what doesn’t need to be done in the course of the day.
I’ve also learned that it’s okay to turn off the phone curl up with a good book and read.
I’m making time to just get some rest.
I’m giving notice and hanging up my super mom cape.
It doesn’t fit anyways…
Don’t buy into the lie!!