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“The smackin’ pan”

08/29/14 | live

Sleep has seemed far from me the last few nights.
Like sand slipping thru my fingers impossible to hold on to.

Huddled under a blanket I henpecked on my iPhone.

My brain refusing to slow down enough to allow sleep to come.

Days away from the start of a new school year and I feel disconnected.

I fell like I am not prepared.

Torn between excitement for the new and disappointment in what will be left behind and nether side is winning the internal battle brewing in my head.

So instead I laid in the dark.

Exhausted. My eyes staring at the inky blackness refusing to settle.

Light snores fill the room beside me and I snuggle down a little deeper pulling the blankets up over my head.
My eyes felt like they were being proper open by toothpicks.

The wheels in my brain keep turning.

Summer is fading and fall will be here much too soon.

And everything around me is feeling hurried and rushed like we are late for an appointment I forgot that I had made.

I shudder to think what the youngest will think when she realizes she won’t be going to school this year.

One more year and then my baby, my last will have her turn at school.

One more year.

It’s different when it’s your last child.
When you pack stuff away and give stuff away it’s for good.
The bottles morph into sippy cups and while a part of you rejoices a part mourns at what will never be again.
The last time you change a diaper and put them into a pair of underwear.

Sirens scream disrupting the silence while my family sleeps.

The whirl of the fan failing to block out the intrusion.

I wish I could just figure out how to block out the noise.

And find the rest and renewal I need…

Sleep finally did come but only after I tossed and turned for what felt like hours.

I wake as exhausted as I was when I crawled into bed.

The children awaken earlier than my morning cup of coffee could handle.
But I don’t feel like I am struggling as much this morning as I was last night.
If that’s even the best way to describe the thoughts and feelings running in circles in my brain.
The laughter of the children playing down the hall soothes me and reminds me to enjoy the hear and now.
God’s mercies are new every day.

Toys chatter in the background.
Abigail is busy singing (she is always singing) and Noah is already discussing what infinity characters he is “needing”. sigh

Almost time for another coffee…

I am gently reminded in my devotion this morning that like Abraham, He didn’t know where he was going or how to find the land promised him, but he took every forward footstep with the assurance that God could and would unerringly guide him.
I can do the same and through faith obtain the promises he has set aside for me.

Only He knows what the next few days will bring in the midst of new challenges and new opportunities.

I need to be present in each moment that I am given regardless of how I feel. Sometimes we are lucky enough to catch a “moment” and be able to share it with those closest to us.

God used my youngest this morning to bring a touch of comic relief.

They say that Laugher is better for the soul.

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Sorry the quality isn’t up to hollywood standards but it was just too cute not to share!

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  1. Danielle says

    August 30, 2014 at 8:19 pm

    Thank you for sharing such a sweet moment. This was lovely to read.

    Reply
  2. Annie {Stowed Stuff} says

    August 30, 2014 at 5:20 pm

    I’m right there with ya for all those last moments with the last baby. It’s very bittersweet to watch that last one reach all their milestones.

    Reply
  3. Debbie Denny says

    August 30, 2014 at 4:41 pm

    That is so cute. Seems hard to accept when one part of your life is changing, but the new is always fun and entertaining as well.

    Reply
  4. maria @ close to home says

    August 30, 2014 at 2:26 pm

    The video is super cute. Back to school means a lot of changes around here as well.

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    • Heather says

      August 30, 2014 at 3:51 pm

      I’m glad I’m not the only one!
      We just found out class lists yesterday so that relieved a bit of stress.
      Today we go shoe shopping.
      Ugh!

      Reply
  5. Rebekah says

    August 30, 2014 at 2:10 pm

    Haha that video was too cute! Children definitely have a way of brightening up the day with some of the things they say and do.

    Reply
    • Heather says

      August 30, 2014 at 3:52 pm

      That they do!
      Children keep us on our toes and fill our lives with love and laughter.
      Besides making a mess where ever they go.

      Reply
  6. Victoria says

    August 30, 2014 at 1:04 pm

    I can totally relate to this post. Also, the video is super cute.

    Reply
  7. TheHouseholdHero.com (@HouseholdHeroMC) says

    August 30, 2014 at 12:16 pm

    I understand completely! I get sad thinking that two kids was it for us but then I am reminded that is all I can handle effectively.

    Reply
  8. mommy2jam says

    August 30, 2014 at 6:55 am

    What a sweet moment you captured of your little one. I love back to school however I also get a little sad too!

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  9. MommaDJane says

    August 29, 2014 at 11:24 pm

    I felt like I was somewhat reading my own thoughts and experience. I haven’t slept well in many nights, I honestly can’t remember the last time I did. My head is spinning with thoughts and now all my children are gone off to school.

    Reply
  10. Mama to 5 BLessings says

    August 29, 2014 at 10:31 pm

    Yes, ONLY HE knows! We have 5, I keep praying for a 6th and mourn at the thought that 5 is it for me but thankful for HIS MANY blessings. XOXO<

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  11. Masshole Mommy says

    August 29, 2014 at 7:13 pm

    As soon as I had my second son, I knew I was done, but I still had that feeling about him being my final baby and I wanted to hold on to every minute.

    Reply
  12. lisa galuna (@LisaGaluna) says

    August 29, 2014 at 7:03 pm

    Adorable Video!! I Hear What Your Saying & NOW You Got Me Thinking My Littliest Just Started Kindergarden.

    Reply
  13. Brett says

    August 29, 2014 at 6:59 pm

    my littlest started full day kindergarten this wednesday. i sobbed. i’d intended to go help in the caf for lunch and she flatly refused, explaining moms can come help IN the class but NOT in the cafeteria.

    the milestones are so bittersweet!

    Reply
  14. Stacie @ The Divine Miss Mommy says

    August 29, 2014 at 6:13 pm

    I totally get it. When you know you’re not having any more kids, everything is so final. It can be hard for sure.

    Reply
  15. Tracie says

    August 29, 2014 at 5:47 pm

    I love catching those perfect moments. We are having a lot of changes and transitions in our family this year, and are also very unsure where we will end up. Thank you for this reminder that God has it all in control, especially when I feel so very out of control.

    Reply

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